I wore this outfit the day I went to see Everything At Once – so basically on a very chilled kind of Sunday. Yet again, this goes to show that casual isn’t instinctively my thing (but you can see my thoughts on casual dressing here). I think this was the last day I wore nude tights (insert crying emoji here) – it was also the first day in a long, long time in which I didn’t feel good in what I was wearing.
The day started off with ridiculous, not-so-funny jokes courtesy of the bf saying I looked like I worked the streets – which don’t help when you’re about to walk out of the house for most of the day. I felt self-conscious straight away and like people were staring at me. It was such a bad feeling and it was a while before it went away (not before an argument with the bf and basically feeling like I had to hide out).
Have I outgrown my beloved cheetah print coat (seen all the way back here)? Can I not pull off bare legs and boots due to my chunky legs? Whatever it is, I was annoyed at myself for feeling like this. I’ve always struggled with self-confidence – mostly due to the fact that I’ve never really had any! But when it comes to fashion, I know my sh*t. I have loved fashion and style for half my life and believe I am very confident when it comes to my personal style. It’s definitely been a work in progress and this blog has been key in my style journey – the point is, I stopped caring about fitting in a long time ago. I am very, very confident when it comes to style. So I was annoyed to be finding myself feeling insecure – that’s not how I like to roll!
The truth is, as confident as I’ve become with my fashion choices, sometimes I still feel insecure. Sometimes, I’ll worry about what other people – whether they be strangers or my friends or boyfriend – think. It sucks but that’s just how it is – it doesn’t happen often, and of course, the aim is for it to never happen at all. But if those insecure moments do come about, I just gotta sail through them, and remind myself that, at the end of the day, there is no point in giving a sh*t about what other people think.
This outfit wasn’t toned-down – in fact, I remember thinking I felt like going for a trashy vibe. Yep, I take inspiration from both the good and the bad – I like bling, I like tacky, I like OTT – sometimes it’s fun to play with what is considered bad taste. So give me all the Pat Butcher vibes you want.
Although how cute is this jumper? I felt like such a blogger cliche when ordering it on ASOS, but the minute I tried it on I was 100% sold. I love the fit, fabric and of course, super cute black and white lettering. I don’t care so much about what it says – I just love how the font looks against the soft yellow backdrop. Speaking of yellow, it’s a colour I have very little of in my wardrobe – I always forget how nice a colour it can be.
We need to talk about this denim skirt I got from ASOS all the way back in the summer. Earlier this year I decided I wanted to get an A-line button-up denim skirt, and this Noisy May piece summed up my needs pretty nicely. The main thing I don’t like about it is the fake front pockets, but other than that I’ve actually been wearing it non-stop for the past few months. I think this denim skirt has become what jeans are to everyone – a basic that I rely on 100% when I don’t know what to style a top with and something that I feel like I could wear everyday.
Ah, these space cowboy boots. Last winter I really wanted a pair of silver boots and I got these when boot season was already over. I wasn’t sure about them at first, then never got around to returning them and was stuck with them. I now love them and have been wearing them loads this winter.
So there you have it, an ootd that reminded me that it’s not always easy to forget what other people may be thinking of you. It also reminded me that I still need to work on my overall self-confidence, but that my style confidence is, still, almost invincible.
Pictures taken in Somerset House, central London, on November 5th, 2017.